Query

Can one build a life build upon mistakes?

Suddenly awake

"What's wrong? Are you ok?"
"Bad dream."
"What was it?"
"It was bad. It was a dream."

Surprise

He thought that the field had been swept. He thought that the mines had been cleared. He took a step forward. He was wrong.

A Choice?

Is it better to exist in ignorance, or suffer in knowledge?

Art Imitates Life...again

"I saw him with a date. He look contented. My life is shattered. And he looked contented." -A Person of Interest

Rules of the Game

"We'll do it your way. The price is too high for me if we don't."

Gamechanger

He realized that all of the softness was gone. And it wasn't coming back.

TV

"Revenge" will probably be my favorite new show this fall.

God bless the BBC

There is nothing quite like the delicious thrill of viewing a new episode of Doctor Who. I am hopeful that this will continue until my timely demise.

Inebriation

Alcohol obviously affects the brain, as do many other chemicals. One becomes intoxicated. The brain will have strange, weird thoughts. One will do strange, weird things. One can make bad moral choices, depending on one's morals. In the meantime, what does the soul do? Does it sit back and think "Christ, not this shit again"? Or is the soul wasted too? Can one have a drunken soul? Does the soul think "Fuck it. Who cares?" Maybe philosophers should investigate these deeper questions.

Entertainment

I sometimes wonder if there are enough distractions to help me escape what is going on inside of my head.

My fault...again

It's one of those evenings where one wants to hold a golf club aloft in the storm and pray for lightning.

Business as usual

I take the blows. I take the cheap shots. I don't respond. That may be a mistake. I don't know any other way to live.

Kindred spirit

"I'm going to drink his blood," he said. "I'm going to chew up his heart and spit it into the gutter for the dogs to raise a leg at. I'm going to peel the skin off him and rip out his veins and hang him with them." He sat in the chair, his fists clenching and unclenching, his eyes glaring at her. He snatched up the coffee cup and hurled it. It caromed off the refrigerator and shattered on the edge of the sink, then sprayed onto the floor. -The Hunter by Richard Stark

The day after

"What's wrong?"
"I'm a little hung over."
"Why? What happened?"
"Nothing special. It was just a bad evening."
"I'm sorry."
"Don't worry about it. I have lots of bad evenings."

Next scene

"I don't understand you."
"I'm mildly sorry about that. On the other hand, the inside of my mind is not a pretty place. You shouldn't go there."

Now I get it

Pity to those who suffer the self righteousness of those whose take masochistic pleasure in self denial and proclaim it as the joy of simplicity. Like it makes a fucking difference once you're dead.

The road taken

I've always gone a long, long way to avoid hurting anyone. Maybe I've gone too far.

Concerning religion

I have no idea and you don't either.

Today and tomorrow

Empty house. Empty heart.

Art Imitates Life

"I want you to feel grief. To feel rage. Like I do." - Being Human

Life

I don't think of it as my luck having run out. I like to think of it as my stupidity having taken me really far.

Carnal knowledge

Carnal knowledge. He has carnal knowledge of her. He knows. He has...carnal...knowledge...of her.

Art Imitates Life

"He's still living his life. He's still happy. It's not fair." -AMC's The Killing

FYI

Pictures DO lie.

Hey hey my my

Sometimes the pain exceeds my limits.
I immerse the tattered bits of me in music.
I recover till the next time.

Payback

Vengeance was an incredibly powerful drug.
"Tell me. Have you ever heard yourself scream?"