Facade

She regularly said that she shouldn't have told him. That she wished that she hadn't told him. In moments of clarity, she must have known that that was not possible. The burden for her would have been too great. There would have been too many times that it would have been impossible to explain her reactions or behavior. Perhaps it is more likely that she wished that it were only possible for her not to have told him. For him, it was a question of the nature of their relationship. Silence, then continued silence, would have created a facade. A relationship based upon deception.